what if

i have this dreams , this fantasy where i get to do what i wanna do, be who i wanna be, what if .. i was just dreaming all this while.. what if i can.t make it.. it fears me more and more, the fact is what if i am just a shallow pond , in side of me there is no fish, no sea weed no content, and when the weather gets tough i'll be like the others, i dry up and in the end i turn into a sunway lagoon theme park! i am a pond and will always be a pond not a fun park where people pee inside of me and litter my face. maybe i m just better of being a sandwich girl working in taylor university, nothing but a worthless sandwich girl..

we are perfect

ya, u heard me.. i said we are perfect. the definition of being perfect is being good at everything, being flawless, this includes being good at being imperfect, that's perfection for u .. some of u may not understand, some may not comprehend, but wat is a blog if you do not tell people what you think, doesnt matter if there is an audience or a listener, i don't like talking to people bout things like this, except for my very best frens. Being perfect is a mindset. i truly believe we are all perfect in one way.

Some of us may b perfectly beautiful, some perfectly mannered, some perfectly poised. we are only perfect in one way or two, ok three is a possibility. but a beautiful girl can be as rude as a b***h or an ugly duckling, can be so well mannered so poise. we are perfect by being oso imperfect.

i don't understand, why boys are so shallow sumtimes, not saying girls are not, just saying boys are shallower, u see girls in shorts and miniskirts and spaghetti strips and u guys go gaga, the thicker the makeup worn the more saliva u lose. but there are so many doll face beauties, how nany u remember, how many names how many faces, they just look the same..

whereas for girls like me, we are not beautiful but hell, u remember me and my name! ..

i am hungry!

beautiful girls

alrite, i tot of this blog after reading Lev's fb status, she said she is not pretty, i am going to say she is a liar! for real, beauty isn't about the face, the body and the hair, its the overall feel we get when we first lay eyes on a person, sadly the world is a very shallow place, very very shallow. only big eyes, pear shaped body and fair skin is considered beautiful . BULL SHIT! really beautiful ppl dun hav to wear make up, don't nid to buy very expensive clothes or act very elegantly. LEV! u are really beautiful i tell u, dun think that u are not and don't ever doubt ur self, ur confident , the way u talk, the way u take care of ppl ( especially me) really shows ur beauty!

we doubt our self , i do tat, alot! dare i say it, i am not a beautiful person, for real, u should see me when i don't smile, hahahah.. its bcoz i giv an occasional smile tat ppl say wa, u so pretty.. LIARS! hahahahah.. Guys are so shallow, damn, my fren keep saying that other girls who are my frens are so beautiful, i don't deny that they are pretty, really just that come on, u keep on saying wa, they so pretty multiple times! HELLO!!!!! u think i don't mind is it???! lol.. that's all..

LEV, u really are beautiful!

Macroom blast!

A new fren, MUGIMUN!!! lol.. just kidding , he calls himself the Mugi Man, i love calling him mugimun! ( he says he is very photogenic!)me - i am so sleepy
zoe - wooo, wat's this?
xin yi - I M HUNGRY!!!
me - i think i... JO ON!!!!! arh!!!!
zoe - i~ m ~ coming!lev ! my big sis, been there for me !i think i look like an apple, mugimun der wants my hair, xin yi wants my cheeks! hahahahX
i ate too much fries, i am gonna blow!aiyoo, act cute gila! hahahahxin yi - dun come near me!
me - yum , ice cream!
zoe - i m the normal one here.. haha
mugi - peekaboo!
me -i smell sumting smelly..
xin yi - yawn!
zoe - look at me, i say look at me!we all look like salted fish except for mugiman! he looks like a live fish.. hahahahok, i look abnormal here.. so is mugi! xinyi can't belive i did tat face and zoe with her look at me face again! gagagagaok, we look weird especially mugi! hhahahaha

a picture worth a thousand words, well . i just ruin my image ! hax

28 Jan 2011

when to taylors early in the morning, like normal bout 7.30 reach, went to my aunty's shop, no not to makan, dun always think i makan makan oni k? hahahaha... any ways when i just reach, my aunty was really shocked to see me there so early, den as i was talking to her, all of a sudden she said to a table full of guys.
aunty : boy boy u rite? wat's ur name?
frens - ivan ( i think)
aunty - he was asking bout u since this morning, he wants to noe u..
me - ( look at ivan and smiled arkwardly) hi...
ivan - ( smiled at me politely)
workers -( gang up together look at me mischieviously)
i ended up walking to the cash register silently.. so paiseh man! hahahahah
lol, i gt a few smses and calles from frens. Kugan! MANN WEI! and WEI ZHUANG! they called from NS tru the pay phone and i gotta tell u i love them for that! den i continued working till like about 2 and i can tell u, i was busy, ppl kacau me and stuff lol.. hahahaha
den i went to the library and on9 fb..
damn.. so many wishes.. its about 300 wishes.. and let me tell u 3/4 of it, i dun even noe who la. anyways i showed gratitude to them and stuff and class starts at 3. gladys gav a an awesome monkey thingy which was so cute and binny gave me a purse like thingy jeans thingy. very adorable and we went to the lecture theatre. and there we met up with the others, and ZZ gave me a very elegant bracelet! <3 it.
they actually sang a BD song to me in the room and everybody followed T^T i was so embarassed but nonetheless gotta love them and the strawberry that started it! even my lecturer was like Oh its ur bd, happy bd and stuff. and after the one hour class they celebrated my bd! i <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZKH2x5mYYLpzgKyklUnA9JXCpWX5tuURkKOyZsTliJdcaKGmkWfp-QLBY1G2uNRKimszJP3u6ez7Uy0sM8wHroIpvF9dkOtUfKrgR2Dj6vB86Jo0W50nO0gRTS3noj8FZABMdUQymwBHf/s1600/169037_188054287891447_100000606310606_571722_2043524_n.jpg">although i dun eat cakes, but i had to eat this one, it was filled with love! hahah.. i made 3 wishes and told them 2, lol, and i actually bite off the candle T^T hahaha.. and XY put cream on me, and well revenge is sweet ! hahahah
the beautiful ZZ!!!the not-yet-whole-gang-but-almost-full gang! hahahah
after that we went to the library to on9 again and macroom!
i'll post macroom in another blog.. for now chao!

Empire! sshhh, u all very noisy!

that day i went out with my frens here in taylors, i noe i noe, i've whined saying how i m scared i couldn;t get frens, scared to be alone in that school,, and of course i am very lucky and blessed, dat i have found a group of ppl i can actually be comfortable in, n din have to change my self at all to fit into this group.. that's a blessing! believe me! After mr winston's class we went to the library, den a bunch of us went to the library to on9 and stuff hahah, den we waited for the bus for like 30 minutes or so, we had a blast waiting and off we go to empire by bus den by foot.. T^T anyways, we reached our destination.makan! kat reLex. dun ask, i dun noe also..yes, we are ladies, we shop! hahahaha
yes we are still in the shopping mall and yes the two girls at the back , they painted their nails in the shopping mall..hahahahaha

in the end it was a great day.. and after this, we went back to my place and checked out iranian fishes.. hahahahaha.. Zoe kept singing " break break break ur heart" , and ZZ and i were like i am gonna break break break ur neck! hahhaha

no worries!

i hav already settled down.. getting use to every thing here now.. even sien oso sien till numb d.. hahahaha.. but i love working for my aunt in taylors.. that day was the happiest day of my life.. and my aunt actually pulled me and say i'll find a boyfriend for u here.. HAhahaahaHAHA! so funny la.. she said this guy ok la, dat guy very hensem la, this guy very nice la.. wa, like buying vege in the market, so many choices but not every vege i like to eat kn? hahahah.. any ways, thx to ur love and support, i am back! hahahahha.. update when i am free!