CNY CELEBRATION ..

ok skip skip the reunions... chu4, wednesday -PARTAY!!!!

when to cat's house at 3 sumting... alot of people where there... it was great... we had fun and omg i so my old fren angie... miss her so...

yup alot came... and i really dun noe how much her mummy had to withdraw money from the bank, just to pack our ang paus...hahaha ...

oo, u see that deck of cards, yup, they were gambling... and gambled a little HERE.. the party ain't over yet...hehe

wad? its the holidays we cam whore too... and believe me when i say we have more than dis...heheb4 leaving her house , she sang some songs for us...

sweet girl + sweet songs + sweet voice = sweet

after cat's house , i went to PRofessor Toh's house... my old math / add maths teacher...hhehe/... to collect more reds... or u can say greens...

then its off to another party... this party sad to say : i gambled.... T.T i noe i am so ashamed...

same people , diff party... we walk , they walked, i rode a car...hehe... neways, the food damn good man...

that a peek... sedap... i miss it now... i wan sumore!!! T.T

see my happy face?

ok so? i was on a winning streak, but in the end, no win no lose ...hehehe... the confession of a seasonal gambler....hohohoh....

EVERYBODY HAPPY CNY!!!!

I am no super woman, i get frustrated too, remember tat..

arh!!!! this post is random.. just don't feel really great or pleasant really.. i found my self letting go of things that i want but is it really bad? i always tell myself that let it go, something better will show up.. but when will i actually now that thing will show up? will i continue to let that go too? but i noe that is not for me to think...

what am i a doll? something for u guys to take care? ya, u heard me right ! GUYS!!!! what are u? why do i have to answer to u? i noe i noe, u are concern , i noe i noe, u are worried, but can't i just be me for once? can't i have my mood swinging around when ever i want? can't i be happy for a sec and angry after that? why must i stay like a quiet doll who answer to ur everything? we are u forcing me to be somebody i am not... I am stronger than all of u compared, ya i admit when a bug flies over here, i'll scream, when i see injuries , i feel sad , when i hear death i'll cry.. but trust me, i am more than what i seem... Stop what u are doing... when i say no, i mean no... i am not those girls who say no and secretly wants it... and wants this this that that boy to buy for her.... If i want it , i damn it will buy it... no need for anyone to ask do u want it? ...i am frustrated... damn frustrated... i don't need your money... i have money and i'll take that money out....
please when i don't wanna talk , dun make me talk...
when i don;t wanna laugh, dun make me laugh..
when all i wan was to sit there and eat ice cream all day, dun say that i am gonna be fat...
when i break down and cry, don't worry, i'll cry in the toiet alone, it won't concern u....
when i face a problem, let me handle it alone, don't annoy me with it...
when i am frustrated, just let me continue to fruste...
all i want was to just be me, let me relax... let me chill... i don't wanna hear your voices saying don't worry, nothing's gonna happen, for heaven sakes, u don't noe that... let me do the consoling my self...

thank you for listening....

Fasi yg paling bergaya di kem waja diri 2010... saya! hahah

J: ape ni i kena tunggu lg ke? haiz, teruk la khidmat cameraman ni...

J : finally boleh start posing...

j: u rasa pose mana yg lebih sesuai kat sini?

J: boleh x baju i cam ni? bleh la...

J : stress la i dgn u all ni... work with me baby...haiz...

J : agak hensem laki tu... phweit...hahaha

cameraman : die die die... susah nak keja ngn ang....



J : berani ang sentuh i.... hai ya!!!!

J : woi, cantik nye skirt ang.,... beli kat na?

K : lupa dh la.... pak cik yg bg.,..

happy birthday to me!!!! yay!!!

28 of Jan ... Sukan tara on my birthday !!! yg tu x pa, but god gave me the greatest gift of all on my bd, the gift of sound.... i had a bad sore throat... i couldnt even speak... but the next day , i was fine... great... anyways, back to my bd.. went to school early in the morning for prefects...and thanks to wei zhuang and kugan , the whole prefect board sang " happy birthday " to me... malunya saya... den everybody went to the field and we had taklimat and some warm ups... due to no voice, i ask ashvin to b my pengganti... and things were quite alright la...

our little gathering...

the gang and i... our warm up session... at first we went for 400, then lontar peluru , den lompat jauh, and finally 100... 400 .. al though sick , i still took part.... semangat sultan... yay!!! hahahwow, gaya sorang athlete...kononnya la...hahah... bergaya jugak la..hehehe

after our jumping, we had break, i sat around the r n d room and sembang voice-lessly with my juniors, AF, Andrew, and Adik ikhwan..hahaha after awhile we went to run 100..

ok, dey lazy to run for their own rumah sukan... hey wait, two of them are mine... T>T ... but they went after awhile coz kena marah...hehehe... we chat voice-lessly oso...hehehe.....

den after this, we went for rondaan to keep the students from going around vandalising the school... happy bd to me... and all mts sat down and listen to rabi talk about ghost...

hehehe... the vainest of all.. wakakakak...

den i pull AF to the asrama, don't think nonsense , but to do rondaan la... and i continue talking bout the G thingy,,, and in the end i manage to freak him out...wakakakakaka... i am evil indeed.... happy bd... hahaha... anyways, the day ended like that... and at tuition receive some present...tat's all for this year.. its a wrap..

kem waja diri 2010

WOW!! so fast that kem finish and as theva said when we close and open our eyes its saturday - not.... but it was the fastest camp.... we were really not well prepared but things turn out well..

well the first day was like everybody walked like for onlly 800 m and they were like omg its 5 km... hahaha.. there was actually a cementary beside there but i lazy wanna take care of them at night if they think they see ghost, so we ask them to close their eyes and make some new year resolutions... hahahaha.. after walking in and everything, we did some joyce's style breathing exercises.. paham2 la... den they did pembentangan bendera... after that....
ok after pembentangan and some "sorry sorry " exercises, ( we forced them to dance sorry sorry ) hhehehe.. by super junior... it turned into a dance camp instantly... syok kut... hahaha too bad u guys weren't there..haha.. lol... childish much... anyways.. we ask them to do their amanats...

after their hard task of building a "nest " for their egg, we start our first activity... yup.. prema's activity... it was orang sakit.. mmg mereka x sakit pun tapi i tgk hati agak sakit la... cian mereka.. but they nid to be " tortured" wakakakaka... after that activity , its my turn .. ok mine is simple but fun.. it was to cheer them up, every year my activity is like that... hahaha.... it was ok la... but i can't reveal lots of activity here as it is confidential... so we skip skip skip...

b4 that, i wanna introduce somebody... our abang cameraman.... i hope rabi reads this..hahaha

his duties are to snap and record our everymove... wakakakak.. me likey... i can be more vain...wakakakaka.... lol...hahaha... anyways..

at night 7 o' clock is the best time... its the time when viv and i buat spa dlm tandas... syok nye... hahaha...we did some of their activities oso... like flying fox... i got an award for longest screams, thank you thank you... and jalan bakau.. rabi and i were one of the last.. and guess wat for a city gal like me, after waiting for my pesertas to finish, i turn brave and crossed every obstacle... wakakakak.... thank you peserta... and also we did jungle tracking... there is when all fasi turn vain..oo abang cameraman where are u...hahaha

yup , this is who u think it is... i noe i noe... my punishment for them to act cute .. lolya , i noe i am a pembuli... its not just a monkey bar, below us is mud... great huh... and the guy in the middle is abang cameraman hahaaha... i even woke my peserta at night while they are sleeping and sang to them and force them to sleep again and ask them wat i sang... u hav to understand, i hav to take care of them while they sleep so, rational jugak la..haha... this is how they repay me for treating them so " well", they mengambil kesempatan to buli me.. great peserta(s)..hahaha

this is one of our jurulatih there... we took this pic when we where jungle tracking... kn i told u d... we turn vain... for real....want the story? ask me in school...hahaha...

the best part about this camp is CHICKEN DANCE>... i love u chicken dance creator..hahaha...

2009.. au revoir...

2009 can be sad to be the worst year i had so far... really .. lots of backstab, rumors and headaches... but its not necessary like that.. its time to make confession ... and its time to be honest .. its my last year in Ibrahim... i'll definitely miss it... but let me have the best of my year, best of 2010...

KEM WAJA DIRI - a place where i made stupid decisions... ya u noe wat i mean... a place where i was a fool, but i still had fun.. i noe my weakness and i actually learnt from it slowly... no more making the same mistake... and it was fun bullying those of the same age...wakakkaka... i noe i am evil.

RENTAS DESA - this year i got 6.. its really gud for me... and i was really happy .. and i represented my school and i forgot i gt how much d.. but not bad d la.. i think 50 sumting... all though i felt like dying it was an experience i won't forget...


HARI SUKAN - i won quite a number of medals but none of them is gold.. hey, can u blame me, i was competing against Aina... but i got to represent my school for MSSM(D) .. i've always wanted to represent for the competition... although i lost terribly in that 400 meter.. but it was wat i wanted and i got it... i am not a gud athlete just the fake ones, who can win when there is not real competition... haha

DRAMA - ya, drama... the name suits everything... i wanted to join drama this year to go to nationals, as i wans't able to go last year... and who knew dis year was.... anyways, it was not like last year.. ya, last year we had drama, we had conflict but everything was ok, this year there were hatred , there were anger and frustration... like the athlete that i am, i am not very good in acting as well.. that's y for so long of acting on stage this year as the lead role and not having the best performer's award, i came to a conclusion that i am not gud of an actress just a gud faker... but nonetheless we tried hard to make things work... at least i tried ..

NATIONALS - i admit, i b!t*h a lot during this time, went gaga over nothing ... made me crazy.. i miss nationals yes... and i let go off everything here... i was happy when it ended as there will be no more drama, and i was sad coz there was no more drama...

HARI ANUGERAH CEMERLANG - i took this b4 receiving a prize from the sultanah for 8 As..

BYE BYE VIJAY - after our state drama competition, hanni and i went to seventeen with them for a farewell party for Vijay.. now i hav no one to poke hahaha...

GENTING + MELAKA TRIP - ok, its weird for two 16 year olds to go on a trip together... but we went with a bunch of 12 year olds, which is even weirder but hahaha... we had fun...seriously! wakakakaka..

CLASS PARTY - a bunch of us went to seventeen for a class party, it was awesome... very fun... we ate with our Pn ainie nadiah... and talked and of course took pictures... hahaha.. i was tired of squatting so i sat down... hahaha.. i look old but hey, once in a life time...haha



Alot of gud stuff happened to me this year, gud stuff as in external stuff like being an athlete , actress , TKP2 and all... and alot of emotional struggles came with all that... 2010 has come, time to let go and let live... au revoir....

I m insanely in LOVE...

yup, you heard me, i am insanely in love with K-pop... korean pop.. oww. love them... ok, not just the boy bands, ok...haha...

first out is the solo artistes - baek ji young

from wat i heard she started her music career at a later age, which i din look into is how old.. but she has an awesome voice.. she can really portrait sadness in your songs .. and her voice is just wonderful..

songs recommended ( S.R ) : saranganhae - very sad

: ijji marayo ( don't forget ) - ost of IRIS.. sadder....

Kim Tae Woo

i heard about him when i was watching KBS world... he was on Music bank ( monday , 6.15 to 7.25 ) ... he has a unique voice.. and frankly i like tat kind of voice, but i am not bless with it.,.. alot of korean singers have it...



S.R. : love rain - its happy sad...

: dreaming dream - its quite sad, its the OST for IRIS ( every wednesday and thursday at 9.00 kbs world..)

NOW my fave girl group -

2 ne 1

at first i don't quite like them, but now its safe to say i am in love with 'em... this group consist of sandara ( 25) , park bom (25) , CL ( 18) and Minji as the maknae ( 15).. she is just 15 and guys she can really move it... CL is the leader although she is not the oldest, and man she can rap.. they are under YG entertainment...

S. R : i don't care - for those whose bf are unfaithful

: fire - its burning hot

: pretty boy - this song is a fact... so true...

: lollipop - its by big bang ft 2 ne 1...

After school

Originally a 5 person girl group is now a 7 girl group... i oso just heard of them from music bank... this group started only this year 2009... love them.. expecially Gahee.. the leader .. she is really beautiful, all of them are beautiful .. i love raina coz she can really sing and has an awesome voice.. they are my fave girl group... i love the new them compared to the old one, which is a little do i dare to say it - slutty...

S . R : because of you - its sad and very catchy at the same time

: when i fall - a happier song, suitable for those in love... like me with them rite now hahaha..

now the boy bands :

2 PM

i don't know much bout them but i like nickhun .. he is really cute and has an angelic voice... hehehe...

S. R : heartbeat

beast

Original name was b2st... which i know not how to pronounce... i like them but din do " research " on them.. haha... their songs are really catchy....

S.R : mystery

: bad girl

epik high

i don't quite noe bout them either... just noe that their songs are fantabulous...

S. R : love love love

: One - this song is sad + creepy + OMG + what!?

U-kiss

i noe nothing...

S. R : man man ha ni - u can dance to it..

BIG BANG

OK!!! no matter how much i love d others, i'll love them even more... i love each and every one of them... hahaha.. i even hav their cd...haha... this is a 5 member group... consisting G-dragon - the leader , TOP the hyung... SOL - the dude in the middle of the pic haha , D-lite - the cute funny one and VI - the maknae... love 'em... G-dragon and SOL have their own singles...

S.R : Haruharu - the mv is so damn touching... i cry cry...

: lies - oso touching

: let me hear you voice - this is in japanese as they are spreading their music all round the world haha

: sunset glow - a happy song indeed...

: Top of the world - japanese ..

: garagara go - japanese...

and lots more....

Taeyang's / SOL -

wedding dress, where you at , look at only me , prayer

G-dragon's -

heartbreaker , breathe , a boy