i miss my drama shoots...hahaha

( nothing but rubbish to spend my friday mornings)

She has lots of friends, all those rich people, of high society....

she herself was loaded... her dad own a few hotels and was in the top ten richest men list. she and her friend always tease the poor...
she never cared for the poor, never given a cent to the beggars on the street.. then one day, she bump with a guy who happens to walk pass her, hahah, and she was in love, but wait he was hotel's handyman.. T>T
but nonetheless, she started dating that handyman of his father...


they like spending time together..

they like to spend their time trying on hand sanitisers.. coz he is a handy man and need to clean his hands... (=.=)

apart from that, they did what the girl likes to do, oddly was admiring shoes.. =.=lll

but her rich , superficial frens don't approve .. they say he got no class...

she got influence by her frens and decided to break up...

they were all tensed up and was thinking long and hard, secretly the girl din want a break up..

the girl held on and said : forget what i said, let's not break ..

the guy said : i m sorry, what is done is done, after one hurt, even the pain is not there, the scar is still a mark... they broke up and walked separate ways...

In the end her father's business was slow and they bankrupted, and she was wandering on the streets and alone, thinking that life is to materialistic, and her so called frens just abandoned her... and she was lonely... T.T

( this are all gibberish , nothing is true... just a story i put together.. ) hahha

a confession of an actress of 2009

i am not close with my drama team in 2009, compared to 2008.. i don't know why.. in 2009 they are of the same batch except for ikhwan..but i like ikhwan and some others.. my teammates and i ( some ) not all have no chemistry with me... i sometimes didn't felt like going for practices... it was like a burden... we b!t$h bout each other like everyday, if my fellow teammates see this, i am sorry i am just stating the truth of my past ( lolx)... but i really loved one thing, even if we dun like one another, when we stepped up and enters the stage, we start to do our parts.. we start acting, literally.. enough of the bad past... what i really love was when i started acting.. when i read out my lines, when i did what i am suppose to do, when i have to shout, when i have to cry.. when i have to be nice, every moment of it, i loved it.. i loved when i was on stage i loved when i was watched, i was when people came and said wow that was so touching. i really loved that part, i loved when i can act something and people approve.. Drama is not just an activity for me to get a cert for college, not just an excuse for me to get out of class, its not even some things for fun..

to me being on stage, when thousands of eyes looked my way, the adrenaline, the sweat , the frightened heart, the nervous face , that moment that feeling, was the greatest.. and when i start speaking start doing some kind of hand gesture, start acting, all those fear, the nervous-ness, all just dissappeared... that feeling was the greatest..

Acting is not a hobby to me now, its what i want to become, and what i hope to be... but to others its just a fantasy that i can not have, can i have it ?

CNY CELEBRATION ..

ok skip skip the reunions... chu4, wednesday -PARTAY!!!!

when to cat's house at 3 sumting... alot of people where there... it was great... we had fun and omg i so my old fren angie... miss her so...

yup alot came... and i really dun noe how much her mummy had to withdraw money from the bank, just to pack our ang paus...hahaha ...

oo, u see that deck of cards, yup, they were gambling... and gambled a little HERE.. the party ain't over yet...hehe

wad? its the holidays we cam whore too... and believe me when i say we have more than dis...heheb4 leaving her house , she sang some songs for us...

sweet girl + sweet songs + sweet voice = sweet

after cat's house , i went to PRofessor Toh's house... my old math / add maths teacher...hhehe/... to collect more reds... or u can say greens...

then its off to another party... this party sad to say : i gambled.... T.T i noe i am so ashamed...

same people , diff party... we walk , they walked, i rode a car...hehe... neways, the food damn good man...

that a peek... sedap... i miss it now... i wan sumore!!! T.T

see my happy face?

ok so? i was on a winning streak, but in the end, no win no lose ...hehehe... the confession of a seasonal gambler....hohohoh....

EVERYBODY HAPPY CNY!!!!

I am no super woman, i get frustrated too, remember tat..

arh!!!! this post is random.. just don't feel really great or pleasant really.. i found my self letting go of things that i want but is it really bad? i always tell myself that let it go, something better will show up.. but when will i actually now that thing will show up? will i continue to let that go too? but i noe that is not for me to think...

what am i a doll? something for u guys to take care? ya, u heard me right ! GUYS!!!! what are u? why do i have to answer to u? i noe i noe, u are concern , i noe i noe, u are worried, but can't i just be me for once? can't i have my mood swinging around when ever i want? can't i be happy for a sec and angry after that? why must i stay like a quiet doll who answer to ur everything? we are u forcing me to be somebody i am not... I am stronger than all of u compared, ya i admit when a bug flies over here, i'll scream, when i see injuries , i feel sad , when i hear death i'll cry.. but trust me, i am more than what i seem... Stop what u are doing... when i say no, i mean no... i am not those girls who say no and secretly wants it... and wants this this that that boy to buy for her.... If i want it , i damn it will buy it... no need for anyone to ask do u want it? ...i am frustrated... damn frustrated... i don't need your money... i have money and i'll take that money out....
please when i don't wanna talk , dun make me talk...
when i don;t wanna laugh, dun make me laugh..
when all i wan was to sit there and eat ice cream all day, dun say that i am gonna be fat...
when i break down and cry, don't worry, i'll cry in the toiet alone, it won't concern u....
when i face a problem, let me handle it alone, don't annoy me with it...
when i am frustrated, just let me continue to fruste...
all i want was to just be me, let me relax... let me chill... i don't wanna hear your voices saying don't worry, nothing's gonna happen, for heaven sakes, u don't noe that... let me do the consoling my self...

thank you for listening....

Fasi yg paling bergaya di kem waja diri 2010... saya! hahah

J: ape ni i kena tunggu lg ke? haiz, teruk la khidmat cameraman ni...

J : finally boleh start posing...

j: u rasa pose mana yg lebih sesuai kat sini?

J: boleh x baju i cam ni? bleh la...

J : stress la i dgn u all ni... work with me baby...haiz...

J : agak hensem laki tu... phweit...hahaha

cameraman : die die die... susah nak keja ngn ang....



J : berani ang sentuh i.... hai ya!!!!

J : woi, cantik nye skirt ang.,... beli kat na?

K : lupa dh la.... pak cik yg bg.,..

happy birthday to me!!!! yay!!!

28 of Jan ... Sukan tara on my birthday !!! yg tu x pa, but god gave me the greatest gift of all on my bd, the gift of sound.... i had a bad sore throat... i couldnt even speak... but the next day , i was fine... great... anyways, back to my bd.. went to school early in the morning for prefects...and thanks to wei zhuang and kugan , the whole prefect board sang " happy birthday " to me... malunya saya... den everybody went to the field and we had taklimat and some warm ups... due to no voice, i ask ashvin to b my pengganti... and things were quite alright la...

our little gathering...

the gang and i... our warm up session... at first we went for 400, then lontar peluru , den lompat jauh, and finally 100... 400 .. al though sick , i still took part.... semangat sultan... yay!!! hahahwow, gaya sorang athlete...kononnya la...hahah... bergaya jugak la..hehehe

after our jumping, we had break, i sat around the r n d room and sembang voice-lessly with my juniors, AF, Andrew, and Adik ikhwan..hahaha after awhile we went to run 100..

ok, dey lazy to run for their own rumah sukan... hey wait, two of them are mine... T>T ... but they went after awhile coz kena marah...hehehe... we chat voice-lessly oso...hehehe.....

den after this, we went for rondaan to keep the students from going around vandalising the school... happy bd to me... and all mts sat down and listen to rabi talk about ghost...

hehehe... the vainest of all.. wakakakak...

den i pull AF to the asrama, don't think nonsense , but to do rondaan la... and i continue talking bout the G thingy,,, and in the end i manage to freak him out...wakakakakaka... i am evil indeed.... happy bd... hahaha... anyways, the day ended like that... and at tuition receive some present...tat's all for this year.. its a wrap..

kem waja diri 2010

WOW!! so fast that kem finish and as theva said when we close and open our eyes its saturday - not.... but it was the fastest camp.... we were really not well prepared but things turn out well..

well the first day was like everybody walked like for onlly 800 m and they were like omg its 5 km... hahaha.. there was actually a cementary beside there but i lazy wanna take care of them at night if they think they see ghost, so we ask them to close their eyes and make some new year resolutions... hahahaha.. after walking in and everything, we did some joyce's style breathing exercises.. paham2 la... den they did pembentangan bendera... after that....
ok after pembentangan and some "sorry sorry " exercises, ( we forced them to dance sorry sorry ) hhehehe.. by super junior... it turned into a dance camp instantly... syok kut... hahaha too bad u guys weren't there..haha.. lol... childish much... anyways.. we ask them to do their amanats...

after their hard task of building a "nest " for their egg, we start our first activity... yup.. prema's activity... it was orang sakit.. mmg mereka x sakit pun tapi i tgk hati agak sakit la... cian mereka.. but they nid to be " tortured" wakakakaka... after that activity , its my turn .. ok mine is simple but fun.. it was to cheer them up, every year my activity is like that... hahaha.... it was ok la... but i can't reveal lots of activity here as it is confidential... so we skip skip skip...

b4 that, i wanna introduce somebody... our abang cameraman.... i hope rabi reads this..hahaha

his duties are to snap and record our everymove... wakakakak.. me likey... i can be more vain...wakakakaka.... lol...hahaha... anyways..

at night 7 o' clock is the best time... its the time when viv and i buat spa dlm tandas... syok nye... hahaha...we did some of their activities oso... like flying fox... i got an award for longest screams, thank you thank you... and jalan bakau.. rabi and i were one of the last.. and guess wat for a city gal like me, after waiting for my pesertas to finish, i turn brave and crossed every obstacle... wakakakak.... thank you peserta... and also we did jungle tracking... there is when all fasi turn vain..oo abang cameraman where are u...hahaha

yup , this is who u think it is... i noe i noe... my punishment for them to act cute .. lolya , i noe i am a pembuli... its not just a monkey bar, below us is mud... great huh... and the guy in the middle is abang cameraman hahaaha... i even woke my peserta at night while they are sleeping and sang to them and force them to sleep again and ask them wat i sang... u hav to understand, i hav to take care of them while they sleep so, rational jugak la..haha... this is how they repay me for treating them so " well", they mengambil kesempatan to buli me.. great peserta(s)..hahaha

this is one of our jurulatih there... we took this pic when we where jungle tracking... kn i told u d... we turn vain... for real....want the story? ask me in school...hahaha...

the best part about this camp is CHICKEN DANCE>... i love u chicken dance creator..hahaha...