Its a little late, but vijay...

aww, i miss Mr Evil Rabbit... no more vijay for me to poke d.... haiz... haha.. but the last day before u left for sarawak was quite fun.. from 2 something we lepak till almost 7... ok la tu... haha...

my lunch... my god i missed it, my fav food - ice cream wakakakaka.. but i aint the one paying... hohoho.. steve ooi paid for it... wakakakakaka.... A free meal for little miss Joyce...

did i mention i go nuts when i eat too much ice cream?? hehe.. i go childish that day.. well u cant actually blame me.. despite ice cream, drama team won states that day.. wakakakaka
before leaving, VJ made sure he had his fun with steve too... haha.. cian steve... wakakakaka
in the end, we hold captive of a waiter and " force " him to take our pics.. wakakaka

a smile ends all sadness...??

Mental breakdown.. again... I need sometime off.. but how can i??
When something big happens, it always involve me ,haha, i dont know if its luck... or misfortunes.... They say a smile breaks all curse , a smile turns that frown upside down... I smiled... but i dont think it work... i am still sad, still crying... still trying to be strong.. I swear i am trying my best not to be soft not to be weak.. with what had happened to me before, i try to be tough, let others shed tears while i hug them telling them its okay, and i myself will simply just go to the back room and shed some, not in front of people ( i shed tears in front before, and the reaction was not good ) ... When u cry there are a few types of people : those that truly cares, they are there telling u everything is al rite ( good people ) , : there are those who laugh in side and say serves her rite ( bad people ) : there are also people who just shut up and look at you kindly letting you cry until you are tired ( understanding people ) : of course there are people who makes things worse by saying worse thing or by giving you a not so patient look and say that you are nuts ( evil people )..

I want neither from the 4... I just want to be alone... and maybe maybe tell to the people that i care bout, what is bugging me... but sometimes the people that i care bout are the people that are making me shed tears... Who do i talk to now???

The Brand New Me, No more Gaga..

No more gaga over people, now must start focusing on a better aim.. that is my life , my future ... Cherish the moments with my girl friends, (when i say girl friends, i meant girl Friends not girlfriends, even though i...haha) anyways, no more lack of concentration in my work, must do properly now, no more playing no more un-seriousness.... Wish me luck...

Mask rider

haha... sempena H1N1.. semua kena pakai mask!!! Prevent the spread of H1 N1... but apart from that reason... I actually wear it for fun... wakakaka.. see me transform to a killer:


I look evil... wakakaka... I love it... U can see nothing.. not even my skin...

B4 , during and after..Drama...

Here's a few sneak peaks in the happenings of life in Drama...

This pic shows that we are at the place where we put our props and of course u can't see our props but my new trend - Arabic style... haha.. i have my reasons for my style...

(district )

Only form 2 and already master of tech and sound , i salute u dude... Mr Ikhwan.... U see that nice treble clef on his cheek.. yup i am the mastermind.. wakakaka..
( state)

My " family" ... They were the ones with me when we were having practices... Of course like family we fight but we love each other... Especially mommy and daddy..haha

( district / state )

And of course during practice.. we too play a fool of ourselfs... Its a joy ride...

( full dress rehearsal )

In the end, we just take a camera and take pictures...

( after competition)

we work hard too...

(state)

We won!!!

we won!!! i still can't believe we won... we were promised to go to nationals but still have no news yet.. I really really really really want to go.... Last year , i never got the chance to go, not because we didn't win , its because i had my trial exam.... but to get back on track i must go to this year's nationals... So i can " show off" my national's shirt in front of Jordan n Steve haha.. XD... we work really hard.. and i am so happy we won!!!

i hate my self...

I hated looking at my self... on stage, in front of a mirror and plain reflection.. I hated the thought of " me, myself and i" i hated taking pictures using my nikon camera , my z550i camera phone i hated... I hated, and i still hate it.. but i am trying... o so badly i am trying... I am trying to not hate it.. they see me as a camera freak ( not using the word cam whore .. XD ) taking pictures of myself.. little did they know, i am trying to not hate... Maybe i hated myself, giving my self this pressure , this very high hopes and very strict regulations that i myself cant fulfill... I am trying to put everything down , but by my self i cant but i wont insist on others helping me... what is wrong with me? But nonetheless i am trying .. trying very hard to not hate.. to trying to be fair and nice to my self...