i miss my drama shoots...hahaha

( nothing but rubbish to spend my friday mornings)

She has lots of friends, all those rich people, of high society....

she herself was loaded... her dad own a few hotels and was in the top ten richest men list. she and her friend always tease the poor...
she never cared for the poor, never given a cent to the beggars on the street.. then one day, she bump with a guy who happens to walk pass her, hahah, and she was in love, but wait he was hotel's handyman.. T>T
but nonetheless, she started dating that handyman of his father...


they like spending time together..

they like to spend their time trying on hand sanitisers.. coz he is a handy man and need to clean his hands... (=.=)

apart from that, they did what the girl likes to do, oddly was admiring shoes.. =.=lll

but her rich , superficial frens don't approve .. they say he got no class...

she got influence by her frens and decided to break up...

they were all tensed up and was thinking long and hard, secretly the girl din want a break up..

the girl held on and said : forget what i said, let's not break ..

the guy said : i m sorry, what is done is done, after one hurt, even the pain is not there, the scar is still a mark... they broke up and walked separate ways...

In the end her father's business was slow and they bankrupted, and she was wandering on the streets and alone, thinking that life is to materialistic, and her so called frens just abandoned her... and she was lonely... T.T

( this are all gibberish , nothing is true... just a story i put together.. ) hahha

a confession of an actress of 2009

i am not close with my drama team in 2009, compared to 2008.. i don't know why.. in 2009 they are of the same batch except for ikhwan..but i like ikhwan and some others.. my teammates and i ( some ) not all have no chemistry with me... i sometimes didn't felt like going for practices... it was like a burden... we b!t$h bout each other like everyday, if my fellow teammates see this, i am sorry i am just stating the truth of my past ( lolx)... but i really loved one thing, even if we dun like one another, when we stepped up and enters the stage, we start to do our parts.. we start acting, literally.. enough of the bad past... what i really love was when i started acting.. when i read out my lines, when i did what i am suppose to do, when i have to shout, when i have to cry.. when i have to be nice, every moment of it, i loved it.. i loved when i was on stage i loved when i was watched, i was when people came and said wow that was so touching. i really loved that part, i loved when i can act something and people approve.. Drama is not just an activity for me to get a cert for college, not just an excuse for me to get out of class, its not even some things for fun..

to me being on stage, when thousands of eyes looked my way, the adrenaline, the sweat , the frightened heart, the nervous face , that moment that feeling, was the greatest.. and when i start speaking start doing some kind of hand gesture, start acting, all those fear, the nervous-ness, all just dissappeared... that feeling was the greatest..

Acting is not a hobby to me now, its what i want to become, and what i hope to be... but to others its just a fantasy that i can not have, can i have it ?