Thursday, April 8, 2010

a confession of an actress of 2009


i am not close with my drama team in 2009, compared to 2008.. i don't know why.. in 2009 they are of the same batch except for ikhwan..but i like ikhwan and some others.. my teammates and i ( some ) not all have no chemistry with me... i sometimes didn't felt like going for practices... it was like a burden... we b!t$h bout each other like everyday, if my fellow teammates see this, i am sorry i am just stating the truth of my past ( lolx)... but i really loved one thing, even if we dun like one another, when we stepped up and enters the stage, we start to do our parts.. we start acting, literally.. enough of the bad past... what i really love was when i started acting.. when i read out my lines, when i did what i am suppose to do, when i have to shout, when i have to cry.. when i have to be nice, every moment of it, i loved it.. i loved when i was on stage i loved when i was watched, i was when people came and said wow that was so touching. i really loved that part, i loved when i can act something and people approve.. Drama is not just an activity for me to get a cert for college, not just an excuse for me to get out of class, its not even some things for fun..

to me being on stage, when thousands of eyes looked my way, the adrenaline, the sweat , the frightened heart, the nervous face , that moment that feeling, was the greatest.. and when i start speaking start doing some kind of hand gesture, start acting, all those fear, the nervous-ness, all just dissappeared... that feeling was the greatest..

Acting is not a hobby to me now, its what i want to become, and what i hope to be... but to others its just a fantasy that i can not have, can i have it ?

7 comments:

♥AnGeL oF dEaTh♥ said...

from this post..i know u really want to be an actress in the future..n i tink maybe ur dream is not approved by some ppl,maybe ur parents?

being an actress is glamourous..u can be rich n famous,but tink of the scandals n sacrifices an actress has to make to be popular?
it's a complicated job..

if ur prepared for it,i will support ur decision..all the best in life

Joyce said...

yup thx sis ... i am going to try hard to achieve my dream... hahah u can b a shrink..haha

♥AnGeL oF dEaTh♥ said...

welcum..hey,i thought of that b4..but i don't think i wanna study medicine..

Joyce said...

hmm, den b a counselor la.. u study to bcome and teacher, then study counseling

♥AnGeL oF dEaTh♥ said...

no way!!i duwan b teacher la..already study so long in skul..i dun wish to be back there n spend the rest of my life there..haha..no insult to teachers though..without them there's no me today =P

Melvin said...

wah....thats really really nice!!! Good luck on your dream to be an actress as it is not an easy road!! All the best, Joyce!XD

228_959 said...

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