my way to perfection...

ok, i noe to some of u out there i m not the type that want things to be perfect.. i am not the type to make everything beautiful.. but when it comes to things important to me, when it comes to my life , my stuff.. i am very particular in these things.. when i want something so damn badly, to make my life better, i'll do it till the end, but sadly there is not much that i feel the nid to do so... if u are good to me, and i feel that i want you in my life as a fren as my lover, as my gurdian as my anybody, i'll be there for u always, i'll ask u if u are ok, i'll ask u if u nid my help... but to those i don't feel the nid to do so, yes, i'll just smile at u, don't get me wrong, i'll still help u when u are in nid, when u feel the nid to talk, but my part i won't go to u, i won't start a conversation first... i won't be the first to do anything at all... i am passive acknowledge tat... i am not good at new things, going to new places... unfamiliar faces, unfamiliar sights..

i want things in my life to be just prefect like what i dream... I want to go higher places... I can't stop at one place if i noe i hav the potential to go further, even if i am tired of walking... I'll still walk and walk and walk... until who knows where... when i wrote an essay on my future husband, OMG, he sounded perfect... seriously.. but i guess its just a fiction.. i wanted a handsome smart, caring and all perfect husband talented musically... WOW!!! in love with mr perfect, but u think ? i doubt that will happen... now i just find guys who are ok looking, better than normal , or other people say hot irritating... really.. now i feel that my dream guy will never exist.. like OMG.. guys say that girls who are beautiful are dumb, ugly girls are smart... same like that concept, Hot guys are useless, Not hot guys are damn caring people.. so my perfect life is not so perfect i guess... I won't be surprise if i marry a fat bald guy with no money .... hmm... I'll just have to work hard den.. T.T gagaga... ok ok... arh!!!
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saja post sumting... haha

note to self!

things come and go , and i m that type who can't let go of the past, and not willing to move forward, i am still young and i have lots more to do. nothing happened between me and you nothing happened between us, no special connections , no special relationship no special feelings.. we are two normal people and will always be like that...
i have my own principles in life... i can't change them i am very old fashion, sometimes wild sometimes crazy, but my principles and still there, and i would never dream of crossing it..

i hate liars, i hate cheaters... i hate it when u play with me. i hate it that i seem stupid, i hate it that you think that everything is okay and what you do is okay, i hate it that you are so care free while i am to one going around sweating like hell..

i hate it that i have to share, i hate it that you think its okay to have more that one, i hate it that i am not the one on top , i hate when i have to fight , i hate it that i have to b the best as it is tiring.

i hate it when i am accused. i hate it when people say that i did things that are bad when all i did was nothing, i hate when i was said to be a girl who have no morals no principles, i hate when u do that...

i hate it when you yell at me, i hate it when your voice go high and you start to get angry at me , i hate it when you use that tone on me, i hate it bcoz i am afraid of it.. I hate it when you get mad, at me or not, i hate it...

i hate it that you can not cannot do what i hate.. i hate it..

sweet ! sixteen.. not mine though..XP

FUN!! is all i can say although i went back early... don't blame me, i have school.. i heard the ended round 11 ++... hehehe... wish i could hav stayed longer... there were reasons y i left not entirely just for school... the reasons will always be with me, not for sharing.. sorry..haha...ok. i dressed like so, but without the over size specs..hehe... not the coolest dressing but i m comfortable in it.. haha...moha, she looks like MJ to me in this pic... agree?wow, cool beads! hahaha... ok, b4 u comment on anything, no they are not gays...hahah... they are so cute like that...hahaha... especially wish.. to me he looks drunk that night...hahaha....FARINA!!! love her so damn much... i dun noe y, but just love her.. no not lesbian kinda love... normal fren-y love la...hahaa...
ok, so these guys went up stage and starts dancing... aliff was the best.. so damn funny... hahaha.. cute cute cute!!!

ok, i look like a ...... ..... .... hahaha... neways, my review of the party... the food damn nice, and everything bout it... fabulous... love it...

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a lil dance they put up spontaneously ... damn hilarious.. never regret going;..wakakaakaka

to u... i learnt and will always.. dongsaeng ar!

To my dear sister :

There are things that i don't have the time to tell u, so i choose to write it here in my blog so when u feel stuck and bored u can view it... hehehe... I m writing these things truly from my own point of view and my heart, and i want you to noe... recently to me ur status in fb are quite sad and emo-ish, so i came up with a conclusion dat there is some one in your heart that you are not telling me, i don't mind, i understand u are very secretive and protective of urself.. even if u don't have one this post will come in handy one day, i hope and i don't think u'll ask ur mommy for advises like this and i may be busy then...

don't b emo over a guy, i noe its hard to do so, hey been there done that... Its " unpreventable " so listen up, strengthen urself, find things that can cheer u up, or ur frens like eena, audrey, and so on... its ok to feel sad, to wanna cry , do all that just don't purposely do it infront of him or anyone for matter fact... just pull ur closest fren and tell them everything how u saw him with her la, how he neglects u la, and cry ur heart out.. this is wear true frens come in... Second, for the cheaters.. never cheat .. u don't like to be cheated on, it sucks like hell... believe me, always been there in that...hahaha... not technically though...haha... anyways.. even if he cheats, don't go around crying and shouting at him or so, although it hurts but for a vain person like me , i believe image is important, we don't go around crying and shouting, and simply throw stuff, we do that inside our house and put loud music on, when we see him or that girl, we smile and say hi.. hahah... we must be generous.. look them in the eyes and not fear...

3rd, if u have a crush and he don't crush u back..haha... don't go waiting for him to sms u, waiting for him to talk to u, what meant to b is what meant to b k? hehee... i noe how it feels to want him to talk to u, to say hey nice shirt, hey u free later? lets get a bite or two... frankly those only happen in fairy tales... here, we just wait... don't wait .... waste time only... he will never do that... guys are some times in a nice way blur, in a harsh way idiots..hahaha... same like girls to them la...hahaha... we are suave people dongsaeng... remember we take care of our images... U to me are a strong girl by appearance but i noe u are really really fragile coz u are very protective of urself... its a good things, but must try to let loose, not too much like I , u'll get hurt too..

This post can also be a reminder to me... lets both JANG!!!

yours sincerely,
unnie

HAC no wait .. MAC

ok, its that time of year again... what ? HAC... sembah and everything... this year, i am taking for drama... although its not fair for only I to go up stage and take it from the sultanah herself but i am sorry, i had to... after all its our senior year.. sorry guys....
this is wat happened:we went early and talked like usual rite, but we went damn early... hahaha... den of course as a vain-arazzi ( cam whore is such a harsh word ) myself... i hav to take pictures of everything...budak blur... blur !!!! hahaahappl come to take hadiah.. they came to study... not for nothing la .. for a physic test...hahahaadik ikhwan!!! hahaha... so tall... T.T love his cam so much... T.T i will never get one like tat!!! EN, y u smiling sorang2? dongsaeng ar, nothing in side la..haha... no bf no lovey smsesizzaty! cool... suhaini comel! aina... cool! haha... my chefs..haha.. just kidding...

relay carnival.. best giler...

never heard of it... that's a good thing .. coz we just start it this year... feel weird y i start writting my blog now? u shud, coz i am extremely happy today after a damn long time... gagagaga... so i quite studying for this whole week and relaxed.. now u noe? hahaha... ok .. back to this relay business... we had a relay carnival in July... so damn fun ... although i had to run... but the results where great.. and oh, the italian guy every female in our school were longing to see came that day.. and pn azilah ask the 5 sn 4 students to take care of him, as i am close to one or two of the sn 4 students, so i kinda get to get close to him too.. haahaha, ok i was using them then , if u want to put it that way... i don't mind hahaha... anyways... we get to go home early that day... but i drove to school so i din;t go home , my fren and i we went out to move my car into the school compound... ok, we sat in there for like a few minutes, to cover my car, and wear this and that...then i went to the prefects assembly place to see the prefects' for like their duties and everything...blahblah blah... boring much... hahaha... ok den i went around giving my class runners their numbers which i did in the morning, ours paling style.. of course duh, i did it.. hahaah..continue, i literally went from front to back, just to find them... when i got back to the anjung gemilang, mw was telling me that mr Italy had came to our school, of course i was damn excited and wanting to say hi, nothing more ok? gagaga... i went as plan, but the outcome not so good... i went and patty was like Joyce!!! and i was like hehehe, and Xiang seng was holding on to me so i won't leave, and everybody pakat scream Joyce, lol... i was so embarassed, and for that time he was like looking here and there, as though Joyce was some kind of bird, XD... hahaha... and when we met eyes to eyes, i only had one thought, OMG he has big eyes, even with specs on, wat if he took off them, they'll be giants...hahaha... then i said, hi nice to meet u and foolish me just went of like that laughing... i totally embarassed myself... ok... what ever ...then photography session... wow!!!planning strategies... hahaha...
too nervous to run.. did some warm up... hahaha... went to check on our opponents... hehehe...
ok, so i am also one of those gaga ppl..haha... at least only for that day... i think..hahaand of course we have our you jump i jump drama here..hahaha...damn supporting teacher... love her so much.. go!!! Pn JAC!!!!ada gaya athlete? hahahaada gaya... walau begitu, x sangka .....
after 400 m, my legs betrayed me... so damn embarassing... really could not stand up that time .. T.T... b4 that we fooled around saying that when we fall, we shud fall on that guy, but i was the only one falling... but hahaha... well at least i m ok now kn? gagGA..ok, i admit i am a vain-arazzi.. i love taking pics..wakakakakawe got second place... kira ok la tu..haha.. so tiring.. wakakaka

don't worry, cikgu akibi.. u are still popular even when mr italy is here... XD hahahain the end it was the best day ever...haha.. love every bit about it...