Emo?! What's wrong with me... I can't...

Emotional break down - emotional crush - emotional pain..... What the hell is wrong with me ? I don't know ... I was being this perfectly happy girl who happens to face this emotional test after my birthday .... What the hell.... Is this the sign of me being old, i hope not...
I face trouble in school that normal people face , i have feelings that every body have, why am i the only one being so difficult? i feel like stabbing myself with thousands of knives... I have this friend who keeps saying that i am useless , i think to myself he maybe right.... but how can he be right when i am clearly doing a lot of useful things? I run and represent my school , i dance and perform on stage, i play different types of balls, u name it , i'll play it, my results in school boleh tahan lagi... I seem like a strong person, but deep down inside , where all the emotion lies, Fuyoo.... i am as weak and as fragile as the weakest glass....
My friends are clearly fed up and always bullying me for my weak emotions .... What can i do ? Rather than to cry all day for small stuff, I choose to laugh.. that's why my friends if u see me laughing in any circumstances, don't be shock.. I am just under a whole lot of pressure... I still remember the time when i was in form 3, where i clearly got the " honourable " title : MISS EMO... EMOLICIOUS.... hahaha... I was so emo that time, i would just cry , just like that.... and u can hardly see me smile.... maybe that was because of PMR... imagine if i am taking SPM, the whole world will be flooding... I should totally learn to control my emotions , so now i am just smiling all the time... Laughing and not scolding any one, becoz if i start scolding, the tears will be dropping automatically.. that's how emo i am... That way during Kem Waja time, i seldom scold them, coz i noe my tahap of emotional... haha...
All i gotta do now, is be myself and live my life happily.. " maiya hi , mai ya ha , maiya hu , maiya ha ha.. live ur life , ey ey ...."

Unbreakable but broken

Something in me that is unbreakable, it is so powerful that even i can't control it, let alone others.. Its in me , its very important to me - my heart.... I always thought it is unbreakable, but little did i know i was already broken.....

I don't know wat to say

Haha, the food that they cook in the hills was actually surprisingly good... serious.. haha... Who knew? as for this pic, yup, steams are also in the air... haha.. .... If i am not mistaken what i am eating is egged sausages.. yum, delicious!!!! When ever i look back to view this pic, i......




won't remember how it taste, just the person feeding...haha...

They look like a cute couple...

Haha.. they do don't they? GIrls, chillax , chillax , Guys don't rush... THey are not together.. I just simply take pictures... hoho... this was taken on our way back from the mountains, there i ate chocolate.. That stuff is really addictive .. haha.. but nonetheless i love em... haha...

AWW... LQ syok...haha...

Being fed by somebody that hot, haha... u see even the air is steaming.. After posting this blog, i don't know how many girls are going to be jealous... haha... but chillax, she is not his girlfriend... hehe.. but they look good together don't they... haha...

FIRE!!!

NO, i am not fanning the ground, i am actually fanning the fire... but i didn't take the fire's pic, camare too small... haha..But i love my post , its like i am a pro or something... haha... Believe it or not, i help with the fire, although when it help the fire didn't light up yet.. then i was lazy so i went to have some chocolates... haha... i am so useless, haha.....

ok ok , i know what u guys are thinking... " OMG , what is she doing ?! Is she pole dancing?" NO, i am not pole dancing, this turns out the be the pole the fire men used during emergency time, in my cast, its the Baywatch'es pole .. haha.. It is quite fun, from down , its not scary, but from above looking down, OMG , i feel like peeing... Its so ... But i am glad i did it... A once in a blue moon experience ..

getting ready to...

See these people here, they went to camp without their " amanat" , or spaghetti ... results are they get soak in the sea... but mereka yang untung, the water was refreshing, while we look at them soak, we are burning under the sun... While other girls turn into " black Beauties" , i turn into a " black beast" ... haiz, when can this skin shed...

My eN T B

Kem waja is finally over... Aww... i miss it so so so so so so so much... maybe its becoz after the camp i hav my monthly test but i miss the time spent there.... Where walk through a tall buliding when i have a phobia of heights,,, i am in love with that camp so much.... I miss it... Futhermore than the adventures i had, i had some true friends i " discovered " beside me.... They were there when i needed them and when they needed me.... Although we are of different backgrounds , but this camp really pull us in together.... And futhermore the trill of this camp is all five of the girls fighting over a prize yet our friendship still strong...haha.... what a laugh... Now when i am sitting for my Bio or Sej test, i just think back of those days... and i say to my self : '' why am i taking this test, i din study pun..." be'coz of this camp i didn't study for my test ... ARghhhhhh!!!!!

medals!!!!

My kejohanan hari sukan's medal.... first time get silvers....haha....

Kejohanan Hari Sukan SMKI

wow, he is the olahragawan for this year... and guess who is the aloragawati???? its oni the one and only..







Lim Aina.... She's great man...

my wain

Wain, so tasty... no... its not mine... my father's... what can i say i love to post... its a hobby i can never get rid of .. haha...

CNY reunion

my family reunion at KL... i like the background.. the food can still tahan la...

My kejohanan MSSD merentas desa

I ran for kelas 1 about 6 km... quite far ... i oni got 65.. haiz.. never mind... first time run can get, can d... haha... Do i look like an athlete? haha.. ss..... I biggest wish in skol is to take part in the district level and above in sports for my school and i did it.. yay.!!!

A handsome person

Who is this handsome guy? be honest , handsome not? i think this person is really handsome... wa, bergaya man... haha..





DUn be shock, this handsome dude is me...hehe..

My 2009 Da Tuan Pai

haha.. dun laugh... Its me.. I danced for Fo Jiao Hui's da Tuan Pai.. hehe.. ok la the look, i like... hoho...

To those of u who didn't go to the FO Jiao Hui's Da Tuan Pai this year.. U guys really missed out on some serious fun...haha.. We danced , we sand and we acted.. it was a night to remember indeed..