A message that kept me thinking..

He sent a message to me:

Its a sad luv story -

A girl had cancer and had only 30 days left.she liked a guy working in a cd shop but never told him bout her love. Everyday she used to buy a cd just to spend sometime with him. After a month, she died..When the guy went searching for her, her mum told the she died out of cancer and took him to her room, where he saw all the cds unpened and the guy started crying . You know why?

He had love letters for her inside the cds.

Both of them luv each other but never express it.

Him: what is the moral of the message?

Me : i don't know . what?

Him : come on, give it a guess?

what is it actually?

Me : when we buy a cd , we should open it quickly , maybe there is a surprise in it..

= . = lll

Him : no, we should express what we feel..

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THE END

Its over, H.A.P.P.Y

No matter what happened, or what have been said or done... No matter how much pain and aches endurred, in the end i believe , with my continous effort, i'll win.. I'll be stronger..

no matter how hurt, how sad, I believe that if i smile a little longer.. every thing will be like what it used to be... when i look at this pic of me, i would smile .. y? because i know that i can smile... and i didn't do a 3500+ braces for glooming my face and closing my mouth all day... Little miss sweetheart J is back... And as i said : Vanity is my best friend... haha...

Thanks to Richard koay for making me feeling better... thanks much..

A little of me..

Pressured - pressured when something i love , can't be done as i planned..
Eaten - eaten alive and no bones are left...
Reckless - My mind is always floating, don't know what i am doing...
Fat - still sad...
Envious - Easily jealous...
Careful - always careful when i speak and act...
Terrible - horrible...
Impolite - little miss rude...
Over - exagarration...
Naughty - never good...
Irresponsible - never want to be responsible...
Stupid - never was smart...
Torn - broken into pieces by all...

M - mixed
E - emotions

Down and Under ? what's wrong ? EMO?! help...

stress , pressurelized , under a lot of weight.. what! i am fat too?!



To be perfect at everything , its not easy .. that's why i never wanted that... but i only try to be perfect at the things i love to do... Me alone trying to make things perfect, is like i am the only one caring for it, it j\hurts when others don't care for it, i can't force them to care for it, but if you don't care so much, what is the purpose of you even joining and complaining about the things i love to do and doing?





Yes , not every one has the same thoughts as u, but at least think of others and choose your words wisely... Yes, i am not you, and you are not me... no body is the same.. we maybe best of friends, but in the end we can be the worst of enemies...



Maybe i am being sensitive , maybe i am being cold sometimes... but i am still human , i still have a heart that contains lots of complex emotions... I don't just go emo for no reason... I just want you people to know, maybe you are telling the truth, maybe you feel happy hurting me... but bare this in mind, i have feelings too.. yes, i am not perfect , i can't always be great and lovable... I sometimes maybe uncall for, maybe unpleasant.. well, aren't you like that too? but u don't have to choose to hurt ok, that's different...

Ya, i agree i am ugly , i am fat, i am every thing that you and your friends have been saying , it hurts , i may act like i am not caring, what for if i jump up and down, i still can't do anything bout it.. yes, i am full of my self, i am arrogant , i am all of those, well aren't we all are? Name me one person who never wants to think good about themselves... Your constant hurting made me that, you people will never shatter my confidence... That's why i am still standing...

Friends? they can be there for you and they can stab you.. A thousand knives have been in my back, haven really recover... what can i do? even an armour suit can break with a constant stab... We can discuss together... Your arrogance , my ego, our pride.. all of them too strong... How? change.... But who is willing? i am, just slowly.. Aren't you suppose to be happy for me when something good happens to me? will shatter it into a thousand pieces of glass for me? i don't need that.. Friends, suppose to give confidence, what have you ever done , than to break me into pieces and waiting for me to fail?! yes , i am sensitive because when once bitten, you will start to fear...

A smiling face is always ungenuine when you have something in your heart and when you tell every one that everything is alrite..
HURT

a day in IPSAH

i went to see the sumting sumting concert in IPSAH d other day... frankly my friends and i were the earliest there.. great... the whole show was quite amusing i love it a lot.... especially looking for the rain god and the necklace...

Just wanting to stay there longer...

Something happened today, we never used to talk as friends, the most is " how to do this question? " " can you lend me your bio notes?" We talked that day.. It wasn't like sparks flew every where and I suddenly hear bell ringing in the air out of no where, and fire works with rose petals around me.... Its just a normal friend to friend talk... it does feel weird , but it does feel good... haha... Just a little defect... Why la our friends like that ? haha... Just talking... Its like a crime d... hehe... things are always not what it seems... It's always different for different people...

what hapened yesterday!!!

Where is it? where is that thing? i can't find it... why are u looking at me?! OMG , i am being photographed.... No No No!!!! delete it!!! delete it!!!

OR else i'll hit you.. delete it!!! " ok ok ok.." hehehe...

Now where is it? Oh, now like this la, find ur partner to menghapuskan me.. Die!!!! haha!!! Yes it must be in that black bag!!!

No , u will never take it away from me... ACA!!!! haha...

Finally , i found.. it!!!! hehe.. i better leave...

Pictures look from bottom to up

Drama Now and Then

i give anything to have it all back.. but once is past , we just can't go back... No matter how bad we want it... it doesn't mean i dun love this year's team... its just the different feelings... I hope we get better and i really hope we win.. i will improve....

Stupid Girl!! I know...

Yup that's just me..

Easily cheated, easily back-stabbed, easily hurt!!! yup, but what can i do... B'coz i trust people too much than my self... Now?! every thing is changing... its ur time to trust me... I know i can do it!!!

Finally!!! i m so back in!!!

I miss my dear old blog so much.. but i just can't sign in I don't know why.. The main thing now is i got in.. yay!!!!