2009.. au revoir...

2009 can be sad to be the worst year i had so far... really .. lots of backstab, rumors and headaches... but its not necessary like that.. its time to make confession ... and its time to be honest .. its my last year in Ibrahim... i'll definitely miss it... but let me have the best of my year, best of 2010...

KEM WAJA DIRI - a place where i made stupid decisions... ya u noe wat i mean... a place where i was a fool, but i still had fun.. i noe my weakness and i actually learnt from it slowly... no more making the same mistake... and it was fun bullying those of the same age...wakakkaka... i noe i am evil.

RENTAS DESA - this year i got 6.. its really gud for me... and i was really happy .. and i represented my school and i forgot i gt how much d.. but not bad d la.. i think 50 sumting... all though i felt like dying it was an experience i won't forget...


HARI SUKAN - i won quite a number of medals but none of them is gold.. hey, can u blame me, i was competing against Aina... but i got to represent my school for MSSM(D) .. i've always wanted to represent for the competition... although i lost terribly in that 400 meter.. but it was wat i wanted and i got it... i am not a gud athlete just the fake ones, who can win when there is not real competition... haha

DRAMA - ya, drama... the name suits everything... i wanted to join drama this year to go to nationals, as i wans't able to go last year... and who knew dis year was.... anyways, it was not like last year.. ya, last year we had drama, we had conflict but everything was ok, this year there were hatred , there were anger and frustration... like the athlete that i am, i am not very good in acting as well.. that's y for so long of acting on stage this year as the lead role and not having the best performer's award, i came to a conclusion that i am not gud of an actress just a gud faker... but nonetheless we tried hard to make things work... at least i tried ..

NATIONALS - i admit, i b!t*h a lot during this time, went gaga over nothing ... made me crazy.. i miss nationals yes... and i let go off everything here... i was happy when it ended as there will be no more drama, and i was sad coz there was no more drama...

HARI ANUGERAH CEMERLANG - i took this b4 receiving a prize from the sultanah for 8 As..

BYE BYE VIJAY - after our state drama competition, hanni and i went to seventeen with them for a farewell party for Vijay.. now i hav no one to poke hahaha...

GENTING + MELAKA TRIP - ok, its weird for two 16 year olds to go on a trip together... but we went with a bunch of 12 year olds, which is even weirder but hahaha... we had fun...seriously! wakakakaka..

CLASS PARTY - a bunch of us went to seventeen for a class party, it was awesome... very fun... we ate with our Pn ainie nadiah... and talked and of course took pictures... hahaha.. i was tired of squatting so i sat down... hahaha.. i look old but hey, once in a life time...haha



Alot of gud stuff happened to me this year, gud stuff as in external stuff like being an athlete , actress , TKP2 and all... and alot of emotional struggles came with all that... 2010 has come, time to let go and let live... au revoir....

I m insanely in LOVE...

yup, you heard me, i am insanely in love with K-pop... korean pop.. oww. love them... ok, not just the boy bands, ok...haha...

first out is the solo artistes - baek ji young

from wat i heard she started her music career at a later age, which i din look into is how old.. but she has an awesome voice.. she can really portrait sadness in your songs .. and her voice is just wonderful..

songs recommended ( S.R ) : saranganhae - very sad

: ijji marayo ( don't forget ) - ost of IRIS.. sadder....

Kim Tae Woo

i heard about him when i was watching KBS world... he was on Music bank ( monday , 6.15 to 7.25 ) ... he has a unique voice.. and frankly i like tat kind of voice, but i am not bless with it.,.. alot of korean singers have it...



S.R. : love rain - its happy sad...

: dreaming dream - its quite sad, its the OST for IRIS ( every wednesday and thursday at 9.00 kbs world..)

NOW my fave girl group -

2 ne 1

at first i don't quite like them, but now its safe to say i am in love with 'em... this group consist of sandara ( 25) , park bom (25) , CL ( 18) and Minji as the maknae ( 15).. she is just 15 and guys she can really move it... CL is the leader although she is not the oldest, and man she can rap.. they are under YG entertainment...

S. R : i don't care - for those whose bf are unfaithful

: fire - its burning hot

: pretty boy - this song is a fact... so true...

: lollipop - its by big bang ft 2 ne 1...

After school

Originally a 5 person girl group is now a 7 girl group... i oso just heard of them from music bank... this group started only this year 2009... love them.. expecially Gahee.. the leader .. she is really beautiful, all of them are beautiful .. i love raina coz she can really sing and has an awesome voice.. they are my fave girl group... i love the new them compared to the old one, which is a little do i dare to say it - slutty...

S . R : because of you - its sad and very catchy at the same time

: when i fall - a happier song, suitable for those in love... like me with them rite now hahaha..

now the boy bands :

2 PM

i don't know much bout them but i like nickhun .. he is really cute and has an angelic voice... hehehe...

S. R : heartbeat

beast

Original name was b2st... which i know not how to pronounce... i like them but din do " research " on them.. haha... their songs are really catchy....

S.R : mystery

: bad girl

epik high

i don't quite noe bout them either... just noe that their songs are fantabulous...

S. R : love love love

: One - this song is sad + creepy + OMG + what!?

U-kiss

i noe nothing...

S. R : man man ha ni - u can dance to it..

BIG BANG

OK!!! no matter how much i love d others, i'll love them even more... i love each and every one of them... hahaha.. i even hav their cd...haha... this is a 5 member group... consisting G-dragon - the leader , TOP the hyung... SOL - the dude in the middle of the pic haha , D-lite - the cute funny one and VI - the maknae... love 'em... G-dragon and SOL have their own singles...

S.R : Haruharu - the mv is so damn touching... i cry cry...

: lies - oso touching

: let me hear you voice - this is in japanese as they are spreading their music all round the world haha

: sunset glow - a happy song indeed...

: Top of the world - japanese ..

: garagara go - japanese...

and lots more....

Taeyang's / SOL -

wedding dress, where you at , look at only me , prayer

G-dragon's -

heartbreaker , breathe , a boy

yay!! a birthday party...

28 december - a month earlier than my real birthday or 11 months later... but i like to see the glass half full so, i month earlier than my bd.. anyways, there was a birthday party, NOT for me !!! hahaha.. for a friends who is 11... haha anyways, we went to his house to celebrate his bd... this is wat happened...

2.30 went to cs. start my hunt for presents... ok,,, i see nothing yet... i went to a common place for a present and settled for something simple.. i can't tell what.. haha.. its hard to do birthday shopping for a guy, and who is in primary school... age gap ppl!!! and by 11, i think they stop watching ben 10.. so after buying my present. i went around window shopping as i have to wait for two of my friends to join me... we originally set to meet at 3, but they only came at 3.30 , so i went to buy some tickets for Alvin and the chipmunks 2... after they came, i went shoe shopping with SL.. as u know if u read the previous post,.. my wedges have gone to shoe heaven.. back,we watched the movie.. damn it was great.. brought me to laughter... theodore is really really cute every one of them is cute.. love them... after that i went shoe shopping again.. dang! i finally found a pair.. it costed rm40.. but wat the hell.. and i got a BIG BANG cd... thanks to a friend.. it was an early bd present for me... i am so happy, i am even listening to it now..

the party starts at 7.30 i got home at 7.. and took a bath and wrap the present my self and by the time clueless me found the house it was already near 8.. i lend my camera to a young boy and let him take the pics, hey he wanted to do my work for me.. you can't sue me for child labour.. haaha...

my photographer of the day...

the birthday boy with his friends...

ok i admit, i forced him to do that..haha.. still not child labour...

anyways, after the cake eating ceremony, there are three clicks... the primary school talked bout DOTA... the secondaries , us talked bout lots of stuff.. ehem, ehem..haha and the older group talk bout well i don't exactly know wat.. haha.. too bored, i rode yes i rode a bicycle with only two wheels people, with a friend to my teacher's house.. nearby.. and we talked .. then home is the way to go..

finally a day is over..

Gurun marathon...or is it?

18/12 ... the day i had an unexpected event ... hahaha... serious i could have lost a few pounds just for that... ok, on that day we the fo qing zhi you, was supposed to go to jitra's lai fa hua yuan, for the jitra's fo jiao hui's stuff... afternoon was for us to 'view ' flowers and night was suppose to be grand dinner... ok let's start! go go go!!!

3.00 p.m. - we went to the fo jiao hui and we waited for everyone to be present.. we talked while waiting .. i was of course teasing my friend with his bf who is a jitra-ian... haha.. so as everyone is there we got into our luxurious vehicle - the van... i am serious, its not like any other van, this van is damn clean and very new although its aged d... anyways, the guys were singing in the back, which is annoying but sc and i were chatting... my mouth moved non stop as we haven seen each other for a while, although we went to cs just the day before... we went to pump some petrol and the uncles ask us if we needed to " give out water" .. and we said no... what a stupid decision to make... the only thing i regret.. haiz...

about 4 sumting : we were in the middle of the highway ... literally in the middle of it... we had pass the toll and the petrol station for a few km, and our " water" is starting to have a get together in the bladder area.. we were stuck due to an accident involving two big big big lorries... anyways, back to dilemma, we were waiting for it the move, and we got bored, so me and my frens walked on the high way, literally on the highway between cars, we took videos and all.. and it was drizzling.,. but who cared we walked for a few metres it seemed. and we went back to the van and by that time our bladders were saying they need some room as they were full ...

everybody came out from the car, despite having said that i was going to not hav a bf until i am at least 18, my fren and i went to check out gud looking guys haha. relax, just for fun... haha.. as our bladders were screaming like hell, we had no choice but to walk for god knows how many km just to go to toilet - the nearest toll.. anyways, i don't mind walking that long, really i don't, was i mind is just my bloody rm 29.90 highheels ... who can walk in cheap highheels for such a long journey? i ran and i walked and i jumped, and i few like killing somebody, you would think that after i peed, i would feel better, oh NO!!!! i have to walk back to the van, by that time, it was raining more and my damn wedges "spoiled ' ... arh!!! when we saw the van, it was like salvation.. through that whole journey to and from the public toilet , i had a serious thought at mind - i can't believe i am out there on the highway walking like a mad person with spoiled wedges , trousers pulled up to my knees and hair dat is i cant even describe to you... but nonetheless i was safe in the luxurious van..haha

see, wet!!! it was like i dived into the swimming pool.. we've waited for at least 3 hours and more.. then at about 7 sumting : yay!!! we were moving... but by the time we reach for the grand dinner it was already 8 .. 30 minutes late, but so wat , at least we made it... and we all sat a place and eat...

the food was great... the best vege food ever.. and despite that awful expression on his face, we had a great time at the dinner...

great food...

dun be fooled by this pic, its not a chinese wedding, its just a celebration.. and they are not gays..XD

trust me, this is a cube ice cream.. damn nice...in the end i had a great day.. and i tot i could finally lose that few extra pounds, who knew i ate it back in again...

what is going on? 2009

alot has happened in 2009... we know who is our real friend, we know who could be trusted, we know not all teachers are great , we know that sometimes things are as they seemed... People changed, and they will always do... I read a few blogs during this holidays some from my friends , some from other blogs that i came upon... Its full of sad sad stuff like betrayal, backstab, hate , break ups, love and miss... ( similar to mine but i seldom post sad stuff )

I saw that some wrote bout their friends that betrayed them, some about unrequired love and everything... Friends , ya i agree that not all will stay even the ones that are close to you now. After a few months maybe that person will just be somebody you know. Same goes to love for our now young age, i have a new perspective now that there is no point to rush into a relationship now. I finally actually see clearly now hahaha, but people have to have some reason to make them realize . Like one of my guy friends, he said he would not date until he is 20 and i think its a really nice thing to commit to . He realized this after being in 3 terrible relationship with girls that acts like b*%$ches. So he started this new policy. I on the other hand, try to make it to at least 18. I've learnt that after i've seen that my friends who are in a relationship are all totally freaking out , all going crazy .. I definitely don't wanna spend my time on things that are so complicated, lets just say i aint that hardworking..

Look at them complaining , crying and worrying whether their relationship is going well its quite a burden for someone like me who just wanna have fun... Some times one may feel lonely but hey that's what the internet and friends are for hahaha... Some times your friends may chat with you bout wat her boyfriends did that was so romantic, yes we might feel envies ,and yes sometimes like special celebrations like mooncake fest or valentine's day you don't have a partner with you but i feel that as long as you tag a friend along , everything wil be just ok for me... and u don't even wanna noe how i spend my mooncake fest. hahahah...

Anyways , y so sad? y burden our selves with things that is going to break our hearts? Its not that i m asking people not to care, care but know when to not care too... I learn tat this year, i learn you should now how , when to love and how and when to let go.. I love power , and due to some circumstances and now how to just not care bout it any more...( totally different topic) ... Nothing stays put , the only things that we can depend on are memories .... that's y don't ever not bring a camera when you go somewhere... who knows maybe a beautiful scenery may just show up...haha///

wad am i? ur toy!?

Ok, i may not be the most beautiful, not the most elegance not the most anything... but what am i to u people? i hate the fact that you guys think that I am some girl who goes as u plan, i ain't not puppet and this doll is starting to rebel... You guys think that you are so great, its b'coz i don't give out my opinion dat u people think i am soft and weak, and easily manipulated, well if you know me well enough ladies and gentlemen i am the one who holds the decks..

If i don't say a word it doesn't mean i am agreeing, i am just giving you a chance to change ur mind bout ur plans, if not i am going to have to embarass u, would you want tat? since all of you think i am too soft, then let the humiliation begin... i don't mind, enough is enough...

Majlis penghargaan...

ok i am abit late.. ok we had our majlis penghargaan on the 5 of nov and i m only posting this now.. so sorry hahaha... i forgot bout it... u cant blame me.. i have important things on my mind...
morning - we went to school for our exams... our finals.... and we collected the prefects , yes PREFECTS' electronics such as handphones ,cameras and so on.... then its was our exam... damn I really could not focus... but nonetheless the dreadful morning ended with BIO paper 2 and 3.... hahaha... i think i failed it... anyways... we went to bilik pengawas and practice for the persembahan... and we ok, some walked to SP inn... while i ask my dad to fetch... hey , u can't blame a girl for being lazy... coming back to the main topic... we went there all sweaty and we set up Steve's keyboard on stage and the 5 MTs hav to escort the pengetua and PKs to the ball room.... and the fiesta begin.. when the previous KP gav his speech, i was changing into my performing outfit... and i broke my whole life record... I changed in just 5 minutes... wakakakakaka....ok the way things were that day...ok i never knew slyvia can play the guitar... this was the performance of the form 3s and they sang - this is me...the performers of FORM 4 .. they sang songs too...ok if u are asking, i played the piano... these is our cover hahaha... our theme is black and white...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89mBb0VJfGk - ok, in this link u can see how we play, sorry if the quality ain't good..

after this , ZE and ZH played the piano and it was great... and after all that... we did our fav thing - posing... we took loads of pics and we said gud bye to the senior and oso gud luck...i've warned u, we prefects of ibrahim are extremely good posers...wakakaka
ok... u got to admit is a nice pose..haha...gud bye my seniors, au revoir, bye bye, hastalavista , ciao, sayonara , farewell, bon vayage, zai jian..

the world in my eyes

i am sometimes curious of the world and the things especially the people that are in it... that day i was chatting with my friends about the kind of people we've been meeting in school like those who are control freaks , those who are fake, those who are desperate , those who can't keep their mouth shut...
As we were talking, we felt a sudden feeling that the world is already the end... not denying that the world still has some good people, and i am not saying that i am... but at least i am better, i still have moral tied to me.... Today a friend came to my house and she said that some guy banged her car and gave her fake number , i really sometimes feel hopeless with the world...

I often have a feeling to end my life just like that... Yes, its cowardly but i am brave enough to at least admit it... I am not saying that religion is not important... but have u tot that we were given religion to believe in, we were tot not to kill , not to steal , not to do bad things, but did we follow those believes? Religion is a believe that teaches us to be good , but seeing the world becoming something so unbelivable.... i question religion , and i question myself... nonetheless i still believe in religion, as god was my fear, i have always fear if i do bad, i'll go to hell, that's what kept me sane , kept me good ( well at least it better than bad).... I question those who laugh when we speak of god, i sometimes question the unquestionable...

Its silly when we think bout it, coz sumtings we just can't seem to control.. bout u just can't stop but wonder... Those who do bad, are they really not afraid of god, how can they become like that, we are good as we believe in good, they are bad is it because they believe in the devil? but the question is wat made the believe in the devil, what made us believe in god?

ARH, my head is growing bigger now.. haiz.... i ain't thinking bout this anymore... i hav SPM next year... haiz... i hav to think bout that first....

four days trip -kepala batas

first day - already tension when we reach school... we started practicing...... den loaded our stuff... and suddenly the speakers are not working...my god i had to phone my father.... WHO KNEW THAT WE ARE GIVEN A BUNCH OF SPEAKERS ON THAT DAY???? anyways when we reach the hotel... we were all damn excited hahaha.... had dinner ... i ate vege.... and den saw one hot guy -code name : the blue shirt guy...hahaha.... after that went around seri malaysia... OMG , there's nothing.... after that... we got chased and we saw blue shirt guy...haha.... HN syok...wakakakaka... we cam-whored the whole time...they did not kiss....
just a few hours and the room is a mess... terrible la ..haha...part of the fun.... there's alot where that came from...waakkakakak

second day - rehearsal day, but not until 2.30 la... so after breakfast we had plenty of time, and what four single girls can do in a room??? hahaha bingo.... we start talking ... bout what? well, it secret...blek!!! wakakakaka.... after that... lunch... and the rehearsal.... we went to dewan milenium d but the rehearsal time was terribly delayed so we had to wait... we started taking out the camera...and u noe the rest right? during rehearsal ... i suddenly was scared coz the stage was damn big,.... after 4, me azad and shuba went back to sp and do our hair and fetch shen yee... we ot the smoke machine and went back just in time for dinner... with my "bouncy" hair.... everybody was definitely looking at me...hahaha.... we went out and went to KFC again.... really getting sick of it... ate 2 days d... when me han ni and azad got back to the hotel... hohoho... we saw blue shirt guy.. and azad help us... and he turn out to be GAY!!!! OMG..... our dreams had shattered ... but we moved on fast with a new target...wakakakaka... Mr chin wakakakaka...u could tell its morning rite?hahaha
the lobby's toilet.... the cam-whoring starts...
ok drama poster...the whole gang waiting in dewan milenium...

third day - our big day... well... we make up and cam-whored the whole morning and loaded our stuff and went for the big event... the reason we came... and i was nervous and scared and i went to toilet for at least four times b4 the competition....
our cam-whoring experience....wakaakaka
i look so punk... hahahai just love this....malaysia's edward cullen.. loland then there's the seniors who come to support.... XDyup the shocking moment.... the prize giving... when our name was called out first... i had the shock of my life.. not coz we got johan but we lost.... haiz... to think we had work so hard.... it just pains me to say... SOrry kedah, sorry ibrahim....after a long night of partaying till four in the morning... we sleep and yes our seniors join us... talk about spending time till the end.... the sleep in our room which u can guess we had no more space left ... any ways i step on steve by accident... sorry... and div too... sorry.... and we went back ....


really enjoyed my self and i really love it there.... i love u guys there so much... muacks...